Six months in LA and I am still here….A lot has happened and a lot hasn’t….but it’s all been adventurous and I would like to give you the low down…. so howdy y’all, welcome aboard and strap yourselves in  - let’s do this…

I wish I could say some fantastic stuff has happened to me in the acting realm, as I write from my veranda over looking the waves in my Malibu home.  What’s that, why yes I have an agent and a couple of book deals, countless guest spots and oh yeah, a feature film with Ryan Gossling…..SNAP.  How awesome would that be…but not yet.  I would love to report in and say those amazing things…but I can’t. 

Honestly, for what I “came out here for” and to “pursue my dream” or whatever, the timing hasn’t felt right.  Until the timing is inline with my journey, I am not going to force it.  No it’s not an excuse, it’s just honestly how I feel.  I am not in any hurry…sometimes to a fault for those of you who have waited on me for anything, but I am not in a hurry to “make it big” or go home.  Rome wasn’t built in a day.  If it was, I would call the head of construction and beg him to be my agent.  However, it’s not bad.  In my heart, I know and believe it will all happen in due time.  I have patience, I have faith and it will.

Here’s the deal, and take it for whatever it’s worth.  An actor, to me, or how I conduct myself when I am “acting” is by not pretending to be someone or something I am not.  It is morphing into the character and becoming what that person was written to be, authentically.  In order to achieve this, the actor must, with all intent and purpose, do so with peace, confidence and a lackadaisical attitude.  You cannot be desperate for a part because, there will be holes, doubts and second-guessing, and everyone in the room, can see it.   Not good.

And I’m just not there yet.  Since being here, I haven’t felt solid enough to achieve this process… I have some issues…(really?  You’re not funny.)   I am not 100% moved yet…I still have my stuff and my dog in Houston and since I was informed that the Loz Thai house didn’t have the space for dogs, I needed to locate an alternative living situation.  (Which I have, the Wilcox mansion. Fancy huh?  More on that in a future post.)  I am trying to find alternative sources of income that will allow me to audition out of love and passion and not to pay a water bill or rent check.  And once all these ducks are in a row, the timing will be perfect and I will be on my game. (Read - all unicorns and wine…or as I like to call it, “the good life”)

But there has been some good, no, some fantastic stuff that’s happened to me.  Fantastic in the Universal sense.  Fantastic in the fact I have had some amazing opportunities come into my life and that I have grabbed on to and seized!

In April, this little ole’ blog right here went global by being syndicated on the Evolved World website! (Not too shabby)

Two months ago I did a little presentation for a big film, The Reality of Truth. From there, call it my charm, good work or low rates, the team really liked what I did for them and they allowed me to pitch some ideas for the film’s website.  Well, they awarded me the account and from there I pitched more viral, media, strategic and tactical ideas…and won the entire campaign.  So no, it’s not acting or being published, but damn, this is kind of cool…I will be spearheading the entire marketing campaign for this amazing feat of a pioneering journey into what mankind considers a way to become one with the universe.  A quest in seeking the reality of truth.  Go ahead and say it, “YOU CAN’T HANDLE THE TRUTH!” Haaaaa…

Anyway, we’re getting it all rolling now.  The facebook fan page is up and running, so go ahead and “Like” it for me…then in the coming days the website will go live, our twitter and other social media outlets will come online and we’ll be off and running.  Shooting has already begun in places all over the globe, so it’s quite an exciting project!  In addition, I will be blogging simultaneously so you can have a first-hand account of how this film is getting made.  (Kind of cool…)

AND........ I am writing sketches that people want to produce!  I pitched three the other day to the head of an online variety show and he wants them all produced!!  He was like, do it, script them out and send them to me…  HA!  I was like, wait, what?  I’ve never written a sketch script in my life…and yet I did and he loved it.  (Little ole me.)

But, the BEST PART about the last six months is that I have met the most amazing people and have had some amazing experiences.  Some crazy and some scary, some bizarre and some totally cool, but all in all - amazing!  If, and come on it’s a huge “if” but I can honestly say, if this is it…if this is all I get…I am cool with it and I am so thankful….Because it’s been awesome.

I have never in my life been surrounded by such amazing and talented energy.  I have laughed myself into muscle pulls, I have danced until I thought my legs were broken I have read until I thought my eyes would pop out out of my head and roll all over the ground.......my life has been enriched every day.

Friends, I never, ever, in a million years thought possible.  And they are here.  Here hustling, fighting, singing, dancing, writing, painting…doing it.  "Pursing their dreams” and making it happen by living, doing and sharing their gifts every day.  Gifts of their talents and character to not back down, to never give up and be a model for those of us that want to achieve the same greatness.

I have posted some of their websites on the side of my blog page.  Please take some time to meet and experience the gifts from some of my LA friends….Like them, follow them, enjoy their talents.  Trust me, every one of the people are solid go-getters who in my eyes have already “made it.”

And let me end with this…

Someone asked me the other day if LA was the place where I wanted to die.  (I guess that was his way of asking if this was going to be permanent…) but when I heard those words, all I could do was say ‘no.’ Because it isn’t.

LA is not the place where I want to die.  It is the place where I want to live.  And it’s pretty spectacular. If these last six months are a precursor of what’s to come, this has been the best decision I have ever made.  What an amazing wonderful exploratory journey this has been so far and I really don’t see any end in site.

Until next post,
Caroline

Hip,,Hop,,,Hooray for LA? 

What's so hip-hop-hooray-amazing you ask and who is this blogging on Caroline's blog - I know....insane huh?  A good insane though...and the amazing is…Life in LA…that’s what -  and you know, every day I am more and more thrilled I am here…This town is awesome...I am so glad I pushed through the tough times and have finally begun to smile…every day…Hallajuah! 

I think the best part about being here is I am still here.  Trust me, there were many times, more than I care to count, as I am sure you all know too well, I was ready to give up and go back to Houston...But for whatever reason - sheer insanity, ruthless perseverance or silly pride - whatever you want to call it, I sucked it up...Couch surfed, flirted with becoming homeless, swallowed my pride and shared the blackest depths of this journey for all the world to see, because it's real and it's possible.  It's scary as hell, but when the good happens, it's good.  So good it's intoxicating. 

And my God, it feels great to still be here...I have come full circle and appreciate the tiniest of things...my own bed...my own coffee maker...my own rooftop deck to sip a glass of wine on and breath...and I cherish the support, prayers and love...and on occasion, the tough love (my Mom for example....I told her at one point I was done and wanted to come home, she said, "ok - come on.....but in all honesty, I never would have thought you'd give up this easily."  My baby brother via text, "Well, one of the hardest steps is over. Just going is a huge accomplishment. We are all really proud. It doesn't get easier from here, so work hard, rely on your talents, and follow you passion. Don't come home with out a sitcom or movie deal. You will do fine." Yeah, tough love...)

I believe the first hurdle is over...Now it's time to get down to business and never lose hope or say I am going back.  I am not.  I got this.  I know it...I will never forget these past 4 months.  They have made me a better, stronger person and it will show in my life and my work...I will never forget why I am here or lose who I am. 

Ah..here comes some more awesome...So last weekend, I went to this killer party at Diamond Supply Co. on Fairfax, just north of Beverly in West Hollywood. 

Let me set the scene…
My friend and I earlier in the day head out to the Grammy museum (I know, I had no idea either) because I had read in the LA Weekly they had this entire history of hip hop exhibit and my friend, being from Brooklyn and down with hip hop, and I, decided to check it out.   Let me tell you what, I now know what the One/Two’s are, saw Eminem and Tupac’s hand written lyrics, what MC actually means (Master of Ceremonies, not Emcee like I thought...), “peeped” the Hip-Hop-umentary on the Beastie Boys….AND walked away with a cherry bracelet made of guitar strings! 

Yeah, it was beyond fun. 

So after the museum he mentions a hip hop party we should check out…I was like, well, let’s go get a drink (right????) and think about it…I was pretty hip-hopped out and wasn’t really feeling it….We decided on a cool little dive bar near where the party was and he was like, "we really should check out this deal at Diamond Supply Co. after this drink."

My ears perk up, “Did you say Diamonds?  Diamond Supply???”

I am so down with Diamonds, all things bling, I was like – YES!  Let’s go.  Why didn’t you say so!  You know, best friends and all…how could I say no to that…

Well…..There were tons of diamonds at this joint, but none for sale, it's actually a skate board/skate apparel - all things cool shop.....but diamonds indeed were in full force - all dripping off the people that were enjoying the open bar, chatting it up and getting down with the beats being pumped out by THE DJ from Cypress Hill (I KNOW!) and he is THE DJ from Soul Assassins (I DON’T KNOW, BUT HE WAS AWESOME!)

DJ MUGGS!!

It was, by far, one of the best nights yet in LA…Unexpected goodness.

Unexpected is awesome…That’s what this city is all about and I am madly in love!

I did, I must admit, feel a tiny bit out of place since I am without tattoos, piercings or magical Nike sneakers….



And it didn’t help my friend said I was dressed “way too business casual” for the event…but whatever, I had a blast, met a ton of awesome new friends and, I did get some dope orange and silver kicks the very next day…(and just by the way, I have already had some OG's tell me how fly they are...)




How’s that for business casual son!!


Until next post,
Caroline